I want...
I want a lot of things, but I am still, even with this 'new attitude' of positivity, totally inept at achieving them.
My emotions seem to run around and around the gamut of my desire, swinging from 'Yes I'm gonna do this, and do it now!' to 'why the fuck should I bother?'
I wish I'd been sensible when I was younger. I wish I'd decided who I was much, much earlier. I yearn for that lost halcyon youth, as much as I curse some of the paths I took. Pointless and Pathetic. But I don't really see myself as pathetic - just lost.
Thank goodness for friends.
Anyway, enough frippery. I've nearly finished another short, and the sun is shining.
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But I don't really see myself as pathetic - just lost.
Look around you. Where are you?
There's one solution for brain ache. Stop thinking. Seriously. I know all too well, from personal experience, how one can get lost in trying to figure things out. That is ultimately a trap that keeps us from moving on and creating a good life for ourselves.
And the regrets ... the only thing that's worked for me is just saying "no" to myself whenever I start going down the road of "what ifs" and "if onlys".
And the regrets ... the only thing that's worked for me is just saying "no" to myself whenever I start going down the road of "what ifs" and "if onlys".
Yep, you're right. If you're not careful the 'what ifs' and 'if onlys' creep in at you when you're not looking.
I'm going to start meditating. That'll help, and a bit of centering will be a good thing too.
Thanks for the advice, Kitty. :)
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