I'm in a distinct "What the fuck am I doing with my life?" mood, and I shouldn't be. By now I should know what I should be doing, and be doing it. Why doesn't it get any easier? and What is the point? are two further questions I want answers to.
Thank God it's sunny outside.
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"I'm in a distinct 'What the fuck am I doing with my life?' mood,"
I know the feeling. I have been waking up in an existential angst lately. Someone who knows me well finally said to me, "maybe it's because you're finally living a somewhat 'normal' life (meaning not living in fear of horrible things happening), and you're out of your comfort zone." Or maybe now that I'm free and clear enough to express myself authentically and create some good stuff for myself, I am feeling pressure from myself to do it. Kind of paradoxical there, or ironic, or something.
"and I shouldn't be. By now I should know what I should be doing, and be doing it."
You shouldn't? You should? Who says?
"Why doesn't it get any easier? and What is the point? are two further questions I want answers to."
I want answers and I want 'em NOW.
:D ;)
"Thank God it's sunny outside."
A sunny and breezy late winter day, with just a hint of spring in the air. I'm looking out my office window overlooking the Columbia River and the cliffs on the Oregon side. No windsurfers out there today, for some reason. Yep, life is OK.
Thank you Kitty. You're right: life generally, is OK, and even when it's not, it's bearable.
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